Deconstructing the self sounds too intense to me, but this is what my head is calling what my heart says I’ve been doing for the past year during this Covid Pandemic.
My head is saying, “What in heavens name are you doing now?”
My heart says, “Be patient with yourself. This is just another layer of all those same old healing processes. This too will pass.”
At which my emotions scream, “Are you insane. I want out of this NOW!”
Oh such sweet sounds of transformation.
We all get to this point at one time or another. Just fighting ourselves with no opponents in sight. I’m right there with you on being tired and frustrated with this process. That’s for sure. However, there really are good reasons for reaching these points in our lives.
CONSIDERATIONS
For me, deconstructing our lives means closer communication with myself and Spirit because I’m letting go of more of the old parts of me I no longer am or need. Things like sorting out prominent rules in my head that became “my laws” to live by because they came from my parents, family, church or society. I didn’t realize that these “laws” had such a strong strangle hold on me until I decided to ask myself why I think like I think, react like I react and have no willingness to look at things differently.
Then the doors began to creak open to the hidden who’s and how’s. It’s like breaking a knotted pearl necklace. Even if only one pearl falls off because the knots keep the rest of the pearls in place, you still have to take all the pearls off the necklace, examine them, and restring them all a new. Everything is still there, but it is all different too.
PROCESS
So it is when we break down or deconstruct ourselves. We pull apart and examine the pearls, known as our thoughts, beliefs, actions and reactions, because they no longer work for us or we just don’t like who we are anymore and want to know why.
We examine them to see if they still work for us or if they are even good for our lives anymore. Then we redesign or restring ourselves closer to who we truly are now. Thus we let go of what no longer serves us.
RESULTS
This allows for more of our true selves to come forth, which in turn brings more of our gifts and services to manifest to the world. This is why I think the price of going through deconstruction is worth it in the long run. Going through it, NO! Not a happy camper. But in the long run absolutely YES!
Deconstructing and reconstructing ourselves doesn’t have to be visible to the outside world or even look like success to anyone else. It only matters to ourselves. We know inside us, and that is the only thing that matters.
